Wednesday, February 10, 2010

What an Eff

Do know what is the coolest alphabet? F.

It gives u Friends and Family. You want to have some Fun, everything has to be Fabulous, and you believe you can "Fly." Also never forget the magical word, F**k, a word used to be so sacred, now lost its power due to excessive and unnecessary usage by the people. I still don't understand what's the point when someone say F**k, seriously what's so f**ked up? A long time ago when someone says "F**k you," it means something really serious is happening. Today, if you heard someone say so, well don't worry, his friend probably just told him a not-so-funny joke.

Okay, I am not trying to start a discussion on the magical F word.

It just amaze me seeing so many words with an initial f. We all live in a Fantasy world, life can be fantastic, life can be a fairytale.

However, everything has a harsh side. Sadly, we never get to use all those great eff-ing words too often. Friends are hard to find, a good family is hard to maintain, life is not fun, and as we grew up we realized that there is no such thing as Fairytale.

Slowly, we fall, not in love, but in despair, misery, and desperation. We just keep falling and falling, Failing every task we got. FINE, we do not give up, we learn how to stand back up on our own, but things are just so............... uneasy.

People used to tell me that I am the best. Meeting someone better is hard, I hate competition. I did not know how it feels like to be on the bottom, because I am always on top of the world. Slowly, I found myself in the middle of the crowd. I was no longer the best, there is nothing about me that stand out from the crowd.

I am standing in the middle of the crowd.
Nobody will notice me, because we are all the same, can you see where I am?

Getting out of the crowd is always hard, but life is all about that, isn't it?
Life is all about being true to oneself,
Success is about getting your way out of that "crowd."

Soon, I realized I am no longer in the crowd.
I didn't make my way through,
but people seem to go away, leaving myself behind.
Then I realized how left out I am,
where do I go right?

Now, things are getting tougher. I see something in everyone which I do not have.
I do not want to belong here.
Being on the bottom level feels like the world is stepping on you.
You can't run, you can't hide, you can't scream.
'Cause nothing seems to matter when you are down below.


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