Thee

Oh God,
I think I found what I've been looking for.
But,
someone else found it sooner than I did.
I guess now it has been stolen.

:-(

Tooth-y Dream

Last night I had a very very terrifying dream.
I dreamed of teeth falling out,
and it was painful.
I remember someone told me before that falling teeth signify death, someone we love is in really bad health.
I forgot who told me, but that kept me thinking.
I hope everyone's okay.
Anyway, I googled and found some explanation for this weird nightmare....

It says:

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxieties about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where appearance and attractiveness matter and your teeth help to convey that image.

Makes sense.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

Now that sounds a little scary, but since I do not come from a Greek culture, I hope that does not apply to me.

And the Chinese say, "According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if you are telling lies."

Well, I can't really remember when was the last time I lie. I've been thinking to lie my Boss though, so I can have Summer time off. Not going to happen.

Gladly, there is another explanation :

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.

Now that sounds a little better. Since I am not going anywhere this Summer and I know I will definitely be forced to work more; more money will come to me :)

AssTwo:)

Alright, I know today is a gift, that's why it's called "PRESENT."
But sometimes u just can't help yourself from missing the past....
Okay, I admit I can't get over it.
I love the way pictures paint a thousand words,
I love to find old pictures, unintentionally :)
These little pictures reminded me a lot of things...
I remember the green shirt I wear in the pic,
I remember why Ye Qi is still in her uniform.
I remember that yellow En Ning's classic tee,
and I will never forget Henry and Wijoyo who are always by my side :)
and I guess that was one in a million times Mandy willing to take picture, finally :D
I miss u guys so much :')
And I remember the one and only photo booth in Penang,
I gotta go take some pictures whenever I am in Prangin Mall,
and thank you my friends,
for your willingness to take picture with me ^^
Otherwise I wouldn't have these memories.
:)

The Media Monster

Okay, so after high school we go to college.
Why do we go to college?
'Cause everybody else does?
I believe the purpose of college is to prepare us with the knowledge we need on a specific area which we will study for 4 years and then with that knowledge we are able to go out society and work, and improve, and improve, and so it goes..........

I grew up telling people that I wanted to be an Engineer,
Yes, engineer... I did not even know what the heck is that.
Soon Dad told me that I don't have to be an Engineer to build houses like he does.
So my Dad is not an Engineer nor a Architect, he is a businessman.
He is a developer, he invests and he earns big bucks.
So Daddy told me that I don't have to build houses myself,
I can learn how to manage business and let other people do the construction work.
But wait.. Management? I guess I am not that interested in Business.

Then my interest in media grew, well a lot of people do.
Who does not like media? Celebrities, fame, gossip, and lots of money.
But the truth is media is anything but those.
Going to college, I've learned a lot of harsh facts.
The fact that media won't easily get you a job,
the fact that media is not about fame,
the fact that there are very few minorities in the media today,
and the fact that media is not fun.
I used to think that the media represents the people.
but the truth is the media manipulates the people.
The media is no longer honest with its content.
I studied media because I was not so interested in business,
but now I learned media is a business.
Like Dr.Hale often said, what matters is "did the cash register ring today?"
Although I hate the harsh truth, but that is the truth anyway.
The news no longer deliver what the people need to know,
it's all about ratings, ratings, and ratings.
So I come to college to learn all these things.
I wonder how are we going to learn so much negativity about it and still love the job.

Little Girl Who Knows It All

A cute baby girl pointed on a high-chair,
grandma laughed : "Oh, look! She knows that's her chair."
A cute baby boy handed me a chopstick,
"What a smart boy, how adorable~"

I miss being a little girl,
when parents couldn't stop tellin' me that I am the best,
when every step I took works like magic,
when every single thing I learned earns a reward,
when knowing what I want is easy,
when dream used to be unlimited,
when stars used to shine so bright,
when I fell asleep every night knowing that tomorrow was going to be..
a beautiful day.

I know there is no way to stop the clock from ticking,
Although I hate to watch sunset,
the sun will rise anyway.
Now everything never seems enough,
when you tried too hard to make your parents proud,
when you are stuck and don't know where to go,
when all roads seem to lead you to dead end.
You stopped.

I do not wish for a time machine,
I will not wish to go back in time,
I know it's not easy to be possible,
I believe there is something waiting,
waiting for us to see,
in every stage of life.
But,
thinking about tomorrow...
is just...
scary.

5 Min Update:)

Another 10 minutes, and I will get back to work.
It's the 7th day of Chinese New Year,
and this year I had the worst CNY everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

It all started on the first day of CNY,
worked the hell outta me,
got off work at 11:00 pm.
Called Mum immediately after work and found out that Daddy is very unhappy.
It was 2:00 pm in Indonesia,
and for them it was too late to wish a family member Happy Chinese New Year.
So u bet,
Dad was angry and is still angry and I don't know how long will it be.

On Feb 20,
My mom was celebrating her 52nd birthday.
Although Dad didnt call her, (well I texted him, he didn't reply and didn't make a call either),
but a lot of my friends called, texted and commented on Facebook.
Which made me really HAPPY,
Kevin asked me if I was high on cocaine,
I said "No, it was Friendship."
Friendship does sound like a good name for drug,
no I don't take those kind of thing,
friends are simply the best and cheapest therapy.
Why waste your money?

Special thanks to Asses friends,
To Finky and Riani who called my mum even before I did.
To Henry and Kevin who chose to sms,
To Jason who was forced to call while he was eating rojak,
To Ye Qi who just reached Aussie and never hesitated to call,
To everyone who commented on my Facebook status,
To EVERYONE,
Thank U, that happy feeling is so long lasting,
I still smile thinking about it.

I know that Dad's call still can be the best present,
but I hope my Mum was happy busy taking calls from the kids :)

Last but not least,
Thank you God for creating her 52 years ago,
she is your best creation ever!

Well, all mothers are greatest creations:)

Off to work now!
I hope to serve great customers tonight <3

What an Eff

Do know what is the coolest alphabet? F.

It gives u Friends and Family. You want to have some Fun, everything has to be Fabulous, and you believe you can "Fly." Also never forget the magical word, F**k, a word used to be so sacred, now lost its power due to excessive and unnecessary usage by the people. I still don't understand what's the point when someone say F**k, seriously what's so f**ked up? A long time ago when someone says "F**k you," it means something really serious is happening. Today, if you heard someone say so, well don't worry, his friend probably just told him a not-so-funny joke.

Okay, I am not trying to start a discussion on the magical F word.

It just amaze me seeing so many words with an initial f. We all live in a Fantasy world, life can be fantastic, life can be a fairytale.

However, everything has a harsh side. Sadly, we never get to use all those great eff-ing words too often. Friends are hard to find, a good family is hard to maintain, life is not fun, and as we grew up we realized that there is no such thing as Fairytale.

Slowly, we fall, not in love, but in despair, misery, and desperation. We just keep falling and falling, Failing every task we got. FINE, we do not give up, we learn how to stand back up on our own, but things are just so............... uneasy.

People used to tell me that I am the best. Meeting someone better is hard, I hate competition. I did not know how it feels like to be on the bottom, because I am always on top of the world. Slowly, I found myself in the middle of the crowd. I was no longer the best, there is nothing about me that stand out from the crowd.

I am standing in the middle of the crowd.
Nobody will notice me, because we are all the same, can you see where I am?

Getting out of the crowd is always hard, but life is all about that, isn't it?
Life is all about being true to oneself,
Success is about getting your way out of that "crowd."

Soon, I realized I am no longer in the crowd.
I didn't make my way through,
but people seem to go away, leaving myself behind.
Then I realized how left out I am,
where do I go right?

Now, things are getting tougher. I see something in everyone which I do not have.
I do not want to belong here.
Being on the bottom level feels like the world is stepping on you.
You can't run, you can't hide, you can't scream.
'Cause nothing seems to matter when you are down below.