Detoxification

Everybody say "DETOX!"
I am not planning to go on diet, I am just going to do some detox which is necessary.
Today was supposed to be my first day, almost made a good start, but failed in the end.
Started morning with grapes. Lunch was 2 fruit bowls full of watermelon and loupe.
Okay, things were going pretty well.
Then I started to get really hungry, I thought a little cheat won't harm.
So...
I grabbed a handful of tortilla chips and munched on them.
Everything still tasted healthy, unlike potato chips.
I put myself in denial mode. Obviously, my detox plan had failed.
Friend told me I should just give up today and start my day 1 all over again tomorrow.
It sucks eating fruits whole day and then some tortilla chips just came and turned my efforts into nothing :(
Alright, plan failed. Grab some noodle, some dumpling and had my dinner.
There was a cookie, I ate them too.
I have some soy milk left, drank them.
I've just bought two bags full of veggies, so I guess Imma start to do this again tomorrow.
Let's hope it works.

Day 1 : all fruits
Day 2: all veggies
DAy 3: combination on veggie n fruits.
Day 4 : bananas n milk

From Day 5 onwards, I'll have some meat on the menu :)

Let's do this!

Happy Thursday

Have I told you about Happy Thursday?

Well, earlier this semester, I don't know how, but somehow I ended up with two jobs and I've been working my ass out 7 days a week since then. After long time of persuading and begging, I finally got my Thursday off. Thursday is finally a work-free day,and so I called it Happy Thursday. I've tried very hard to make the best out of the most waited day of the week, although sometimes I failed, but I had a really good Thursday today :)

Early morning Lucy called me, told me about her sprained and swollened thumb, that she could not work and needed me to cover her shift. Sad. Disappointed. Sad. Sad.

Oh, how could you took my Thursday away from me..........................................

But there was hope, I knew that God won't be so cruel to me.

Then Lucy called again, missed it. I called her back, she missed it. Finally she left me a voice message and I listened with fingers crossed. Yipeeeeeeeee!! It was a good good news, that voice call made my day :D

Class was over at 12 p.m. Had lunch at Thai House Express, Tom Yum noodle with extra pork balls. Movies, Whip it finally. Karaoke at Fillmore. Dinner at Spices, chicken wings, pig ear, pig intestine, corn soup I MISS U!!! and milk tea at Quickly. What could be better? When my tummy is filled with good food, I am happy. Singing makes me happy too!!!

Oh at least I have forgotten about all the stresses for the past 12 hours :)

Voila!

Hey baby BLOG! I have neglected you for quite a while, or should I say it's been a while since the last time I wrote to you. Pimples popping, muffin top growing, and my mouth can't seem to stop munching on something. This is what you called as STRESS. Watching the clock ticking so fast is driving me even more crazy. I'm running out of time, so many things to do, so little time to get it done.

What causes this breakout? Don't blame in totally on the oily fried chicken I just had. Blame it on me spending too much time doing nothing, me not noting well what's going on, me who is too afraid to confront things directly, me too slake-y me too lazy. I'm busy, yes I am, busy working. Working does pay me in paper, money. But my other papers are not going well, nothing to put in my resume, not doing well in classes this semester, and going to SFSU in 2 months is just stressing. Knowing that I have to pay all the fees before I go in there is even more stressin'. I've been thinking about passing this news to my father, news about me have not told him about this semester's fees and me just found out about next semester's fees. When fees piled up, they are HUGE!

So just last week Vinnie told me she was moving out! I am losing my housemate, I better find someone else to replace her, or find somewhere else to re-place myself. I will definitely prefer re-placing myself to a better place. This area of muchos amigos is freakin' me out, I don't wanna be friend with amigo who stands in front of his house everyday give u goodbye kisses and "Take care" as you passed by. That guy who seem to say the same thing every time I walked by is definitely ill. I wanna move to Sunset, because everybody lives in Sunset, all friends, co-workers and classmates. I wanna join them in the Sunset fog! I will love it cause I love FOG!!!!! :D I've been imagining myself jogging around Golden Gate Park, drinking coffee and do some reading at the cafe, have lunch with friends and there it goes another good day at Sunset. I'm still working on my Sunset dream..... dreamm..

So what else is stressin' me out? My Philosophy lecturer, Stephan Johnson, hates me, because I never show up in his class. Deborah Goldsmith does not like me because I gave her lame excuse for being late, and I left early. Arthur Pines think I am a bad Technical Director. Cecil Hale and Sheila McFarland might not even remember me. OH MY GOODNESS!

I am so stress, all I can do is eat, eating makes me happy. But post-eating is not fun, I keep thinking about the extra fat but somehow I have no time to work out and burn those extra fat :( I have not gone to gym for 2 months now, I should have frozen my account, I still gave myself hope that I am about to go, I should work out this weekend, I had plans, but none of them went well. So here I am, thinking again... what should I do next?

The Sigh Sigh Lulaby

I am officially worried, scared and confused right now. After mid-term last week, I felt like I've been hit by a huge rock. Starring at the paper with my mind blank I realized how bad the situation was. I don't know if it is caused purely by my stupidity or is it really that hard? But no matter what, I know working 20 hours pay a contribution in this matter. I realized that none of my teachers this semester is liking me, they don't seem to give a damn about me. I am officially being included in the category of lazy students, who either show up late or does not show up at all in class. What the hell is wrong with me? Is it too late to catch up? Or am I being to caught up with having a bunch of new friends and having too much fun? I don't know, I am so scared, yet I am not motivated enough. I am too scared to take action, what should I do know? Well, I guess I know what I should do, but I dare not to. :(

Mandalay

I am so caught up with work, I have not managed my time wisely and now it seems like I'm starting to lose my mind too. Ask me what happened 5 minutes ago, it might take me 10 seconds to think. Yea. I forgot almost anything lately. Forgot I got a homework due this morning, forgot I got a quiz on Friday until I got in class and a classmate asked me "ready for quiz?" I almost fainted. OMG, what is wrong with me?

So the past few days it has been all about work. Monday supposed to be a good day to spend sometime thinking, but I had to work today 'cause eventually Lucy is having some special nightwith her BF, I totally understand that. And so no break on Monday. 8-9 class, 9-1 work and 1-3 class~ then go to work, spent 30minutes at Quickly. Off to work at 5 all the way until 1030 PM! It was hella busy, why everybody chose to come at Monday! But I had a great day at work. It started with a sweet grandma celebrated her 85th birthday, I thought it's gonna be awkward, since it was not so crowded, with the loud cheesy birthday song playing on the speakers. But Mandalay at the moment was filled with awesome customers, once the song stopped everybody cheered and clapped, Grandma's daughter got really excited and went "85 years old! 85 years old everyone!!" I could see that Mama was really happy. That is probably the thing I love about my job. Seeing people happy make my day. These customers love this place more than I do. Then these customers will show their appreciation by tipping good :D Now everything I buy cost me 4 hours of smiling face :D

Another 20 minutes I spent on the bus thinking 'bout how I have started to love my job. Well if I only work 3 days a week, I will love it double. But now, it's really tiring that I have to work almost everyday. That touchy feeling continues until I got home and saw some dirty plates on the sink, it's been 24 hours since the first time I saw them. Now I am purely pissed. I don't know what's up with my housemate, I come back every night tired and all I see is mess. Well, I know I am a messy person myself. But seriously, maybe she thinks I am always so messy she is trying to teach me some lesson? You know regularities? So no matter how hard I cleaned up the house, she will always think I am messy. OMG. I am typing this with my eyes half closed now. I have so many things to say but so little strength to go on.

Good Night World!

Mi Homie

I'm going to switch off the lights and sleep now.
Just talked to Kai, and all of the sudden I'm missing him so much :(
He told me he will be hitting the club next Saturday on a limousinee! That's so niceee, I want one too!!
I miss those times when we used to cook dinner together, soba with fried chicken :D
Every afternoon in class I would be thinking what to cook that night..
Every Tuesday is Popeye's Day, and we will go and get Fried chicken 2 for 99cents!
I remember the first day he went to work, he got home really late~
I got really worried, I went outside and found him half jumping home 0.0
Every day, he would bring me Jasmine milk tea with Egg pudding:)
Whenever we get a chance, we would catch the bus and go Ocean 24 hour and work out!
I will give him all my stuffs, and all the men in men's locker room thought he was gay because of my pink tote bag :D
Every night, we had dinner with America's next top model, or Project Runway or or or Crayon Shinchan, hahaha!
When he is home with nothing to do, he would clean the house~ decorate rooms, trying really hard to make this home a better place.
Whenever I got a day off, we would go watch movies!
Aww I definitely miss him being my housemateee. Especially those times when we could not sleep because there was mice in our house. Ah! and when we played with make up, making stupid videos with T-Pain.
Since he left, I don't cook that much anymore.

Fairytale

Let's talk about fairytale. How we grew up watching Disney series dreaming to be a princess, waiting for our prince to come and then we will live happily ever after. Things have changed now. Back then, I wanted to be the princess, but now I might wanna be one of the mean girls more. Cinderella is kind hearted and beautiful, those prince don't fall in love for nothing, and please don't believe in purely just LOVE. BS. The mean girls character back then were just too ugly, just look at Cinderella's sisters. It's no longer the way it was. The evil bad girls today are usually hot, sexy, more than a woman can be. Cinderella remains pretty, but it's no longer the same ending all the time. In fact, boys like bad girls.

I have heard of prince charming, and when I saw him my mind said "Oh he is so fine." My mind told me he is the one, but she forgot to tell me that I am not the one for him. It took me a long time to figure out that we are different. I look at my worn out MARC JACOBS, then I look at his shiny Gucci belt. Of course, those branded stuffs don't outshined him. I don't usually do that, I have somekind of prejudice with rich dudes, but not this time.

So I went to Magic Ball and asked if he would like me, it says "My sources say no." Yea my sources told me so too. I saw those friends he has, they are like a fence made of diamond and I won't go closer. It took me a long time to realize how different I am. Because when everybody else is driving out in Mercedes Benz, I have to take a bus to work. Look at that contrast, isn't that sad that it's all about money nowadays? Don't tell me that true love can overcome everything, that is bullshit. Look at Cinderella, she is hella rich dude. Her wealth is just temporarily taken by her mean step mother. Her life used to be beautiful, then it again become beautiful, all when she is the wealthy princess. See? So Cinderella is not plain kind-hearted, she is the luckiest girl in the world. That fairytale does not work on everyone, to be a Cinderella, you have to be like her, pretty, kind and rich. Now are we still dreaming here?

I wanna say I don't care, really. But it's just that one day when you meet this prince charming, and he tells you "Sorry but we are just different"