He is just not THAT into you:)

I am having this very funny feeling. Feeling which I have not had in the past two years, not as I remembered. How should I describe this? Infatuation? Crush? Definitely not in love, cause I'm absolutely not thinking clearly right now :) Things look so much better when your mind is covered with thick fog, but when it fades away, you started to think clearly and you realized that it was all just bullshit. Maybe, he is just not that into you, darling.

Let me see why is this happening. Well, first of all I have not really met a guy for the past two years. Yes, I got one Indian guy who wrote me a poem, but I managed to keep my mind really clear about that. I am glad that I did not have that let's-give-it-a-try attitude, which I had years ago and brought me tons of problems. Or maybe because nobody have told me so many sweet sweet things in the past two years, getting sugar high is never a good thing. You know guys' mouth can't be trusted, although he told you that he is just "truthfully spitting the facts." Or maybe it's because I have not felt so comfortable around someone in a really long time. Perhaps the last time I felt that way was during that bus trip from Cameron down to Ipoh when I was sleeping on Suk's shoulder. Or maybe it was because the smell of the car, smells just like my perfume. Smells good makes you feel good~ Or maybe because he is just like me, have low "laughing point" (a direct translation from chinese) which means you laugh on all shits. So you think he is funny, and he thinks you are funny, the next moment you say you guys are having a good time. Or maybe it's just because he has a nice name which makes it easier for you to keep in mind. Whatever it is, all reasons are not applicable right now.

Things turned out wrong when you realized that the next day you are hoping for him to give you a call, or send you a text. But that did not happen, and you get a little desperate, you think of texting him, but there is no point doing so. Soon you figured that you guys are just too different, and perhaps your feelings are very different too. This is such a rushy rushy feeling that happened in just 96 hours. And I think I should get over it by now.
I've been non-stoply listening to Bob Marley's "turn your lights down low" for the past 24 hours now. One more time, and I'm gonna really turn my lights down low. Just sleep Tris, Marley is not gonna give u some good good loving, hahahaha :D

Hmmm.

ARGHHHH!!!!

Now I feel kinda stupid for telling everyone about my new friend :s
stupid stupid stupid ggrr.
Well u know, it was like having feeling that u've never had in a long time.
You got so excited, you wanna share with someone.
I am basically the type of person who spit everything on anyone.
Well,
Not ANYONE, but I feel comfortable spitting things on quite a lot of people.
Wijoyo and Kevin are like one of my girlfriends :)
The stupid part is when you wanted to share but you do not know how to start,
then you will have a really weird introduction of the story.
Your friend will immediately lost interest :(
AH! But I got over it anyway :)

Going to work in 45 minutes :(
Hope I get to go home early tonight, cause everybody go to the concert yo!
I love going home early,
especially seeing all those funny expressions on my co-workers' faces.
Whenever I grabbed my bag,
They will be like "WHAT? U getting OFF? MAN! I wanna go home too!!"
Or
"Awww You are such a lucky girl.."
OMG, I couldn't stop laughing watching their expressions.

Oh Saturday!

It's a great great Saturday, I am so happy I had such a great day that I should start worrying tomorrow. You it goes all time high, tomorrow maybe all time low. OH NO WAY~!!

So early morning, nothing. After 12, Steve got here with Jessi and we went to West Portal to pick up Ghena, that's how a great day started : Had a iced green tea latte at Starbucks, sit down n just talk. Man I love talking, luckily I got a part of voice back today. THEN, after that we headed to Mandalay for lunch! I am so glad that Boss was actually pretty friendly, she gave us free dessert and free drinks! I am aware that we were not eating much, that was so nice of her :) And The greatest thing is everybody loved the food :)))) So here is where I work guys!

When clock about to hit 5, we were at Ocean Beach. It was hellaaaa sunny and not too hot, its ocean beach y'know. The sea water is freakin' cold! The best part was when Steve was trying to take a picture of us, a high tide attacked us! We, who did not plan to get wet, were WET, very WET indeed! But it's okay, we were having fun.. :) So the beach part is illustrated by pictures on my FAcebook album, that was a blast!

Work at 6:45 p.m. Got off at 10:00p.m.

got home around 11:00p.m.

Sam came and picked me up at 11:45p.m. It's so late, there is nowhere else to go. We drove around and got disappointed by all the closed destinations. In the end, we decided to head to Twin Peak, where we just chill in the car and talk. It was basically 2 hours of talking, a nice one. I don't know if I should be happy about it, he is a fun person, cool and all. But I don't know. Let it be I guess. :)

He told me Jason Marz and B.E.P were at the concert today. HOLY CRAP!

Retail Therapy

I am. Feeling. Kind of sad. Right Now.
What a weird feeling.. Hmm.

Well I guess because I figured that tomorrow's night I will be working, so is Friday's night, Saturday and Sunday nights too! I had a long long evening today. Class dismissed at 3 p.m. Got a text from Chris that says he messed up the schedule, again, and that I don't have to work today. Okay, so what I am gonna do now? It's only 3 p.m. and I'm done, I can go home now and enjoy my evening doing nothing. My heart says "Let's go to Haight St." Yea, my heart kept telling me this since yesterday when a classmate of mine who work in Ambiance told me that they are having a great sale, a rack full of $10 shoes, and especially my size! How can I resist that? I must have been crazy, I took a 43 and went all the way to Haight St alone. UHUH, it's not as bad as I thought. Although hippies were there trying to sell their kissed for $1~ okay I won't pay for that although that guy is kinda cute, because I am sure it smells like WEEEEEEED! Great disappointment, no SALE were seen. Disappointed. Went home with a cup of Thai Iced Tea from Cole Cafe, made by hippy hippy yayayayaya! :D

I failed to have my session of retail therapy. Still feeling zzz, I got home and found a box of goodies on my table, it's from SEPHORA!! my retail therapist! I've been shopping a lot on Sephora.com lately. At first I bought that many because $50 gives me a free shipping, I planned to return some of the stuffs, but I always failed to. So here's what I got:
Here is POSIE TINT, u might have seen her sister, BENETINT. They are the same, but it's in PINK color:) Look at the color, you just can't resist it. Basically, what it does is it gives you a natural I-just-got-punched face, or DAng-it's-so-cold-outside kind of look. Three strokes on your faces and start blending FAST. Otherwise, it will become a Someone-scratched-my-face-ouch! And I expected that it will gives me a very natural looking lips. Nah, I don't want natural, I want pinky. But it actually gives you this lips that say "Hey you want some Fanta?" Y'know what I mean? Should I return this? Hmm.. Maybe. Let's see if we can be good friends:)
So here is BOI-iNG! and Eye Bright. The same kind of irresistablity. During the checkout, it says there Now $8 ($30 value). So all the ladies will automatically clicked on it and add it to their carts, normal reaction. It's so much smaller than I expected! But I love boi-ing! I still don't understand how to make an instand Eye Bright tho! :s But anyway anyhow however whatever, they are good deal! :D
Then....
here is bareMinerals MATTE by BARE Escentuals! My new powder! :) The reason why I bought this? Just simple because everybody say it's so healthy, you can wear it to sleep! That means I have an excuse not to wash my face at night now, just go to bed yo! And yea, hoping to see some improvements on my face soon. Cause now, it's so dependable on all these concealer and powder yo! No way yo!!! Then this thing appeared on the screen, the BUXOM collection lip stick, plump and liner all in ONE. Sigh, so I a unconsiously clicked on it and chose the nude color, but it't so nude after all. Thought to do a return or exchange on this thig, but have not. Oh, we will see!! Ahh so this is how my retail therapist, Sephora, provide me with such a complete therapy. There are other things too, nail polish "I'm with Brad!" , brush cleaner and eye lash curler. I only wish that they can offer me therapy in cheaper price for each session :(

Aw God I feel sick now, am I going to be sick soon? No way, I can't fall sick in this country. I guess my previous swine flu virus is not totally cured yet and now it's coming back! NO! Please NO! I can't lose my voice, I can't cough and I can't be sick! NO WAY!

Let's hope it's going to be great weekend, not just a weekend working my ass out!

The Smelly Thing

I LOVE perfume :) But I only had DAISY by Marc Jacobs :s
I recently realize that I had quite a number of perfume samples, well I got a lot from Sephora lately~ I think I'm gonna have a collection soon:) Look at all those small little tubes, they smell so good. I especially LOVE the ones by Stella Mccartney, and that mini STELLANUDE is so cute! I just got it online.
Why is perfume so expensive?
I don't know, I guess it's just the label, lol.
But smells good is a big turn on, so it's important guys.
However,
the biggest turn off could be a guy who wore too much cologne, he smells like a bubbly soap.
Some people prefer not to put anything on cause they don't wanna smell like somebody else.
It's a art of scent.........

How Benefit benefits

AGREE? I try to laugh more tho :D

"I'm with Brad!"

My face says : "yeheee... it is 12 a.m. so she doesn't has anymore concealer on her face to cover up her zits and bits!"

My flower print scarf says : "Do you know she bought me because she thought I am $7, hell she found out I am actually $14 at the cashier register, haha!"

My nails say : "I'm with Braddd!!!! and I make these short fingers look super fair! Thanks to my mommy O.P.I."

So these three best friends all agree that my picture is very corny. But the only thing I can be happy about today is I love my granny scarf and my nail color. What? I know, I have weird taste. It felt like such a long long day.. 'cause I had the whole evening!! I no longer have problem sleeping and no, that's not a good news. Now I have problem waking up in the morning. SO again this morning, I woke up at 8:30 a.m. when Vinnie knocked on my door, I didn't realize I was late, I probably thought it's a dream or it's Sunday :s So guess what, missed my Philosophy class! Wrote a letter to Stephan Johnson which says:

Dear Mr. Johnson, I know you don't accept late work. However, here is my homework anyway.

and I slipped it through the door, that is going to be the first thing he step onto tomorrow morning at his office :)

9 a.m. :

I am working at lunch box again, yes again.. It's different with working in a restaurant. In a restaurant, you get to run about and get really busy.At Lunch Box, you just stand there and wait for someone to make you busy. I love making drinks actually :D Maybe I should be a bartender!
So it wasn't a really good start, but I am sure or I hope I can cope up with the work soon!

Tried to make a schedule for my life, a life based on a schedule. It says that I will have to work 30 hours a week, if I sleep 56 hours a week then I will have 82 more hours to waste, to have leisure and to make some quality time out of it. So yea, I'm trying to be a better person...

Ciao!

Good Night and don't ever ever miss your class again, Tris! <3

MASCARA-fy ME

I am obsessed with mascara, especially when they are in mini size or when they are FREE! LOL. My first LOVE with mascara started with Maybeline Colossal, it's cheap! but it works like any other branded mascaras. Oh! So here I have a handful of mascaras. those smalls one at the back is Lancome in gift set, include Defincils, Virtuose, Hypnose and XL booster and I love 'em all! But they are kind of old now, the labels faded and they look like normal tubes :( Oh yea! and I am addicted to shop on Sephora.com. They have so many good deals, u can't resist. So there I got DIOR Diorshow mascara, it's everybody's favorite, I like the scent of it. My latest ones are BUXOM by Bare Escentuals and BADGAL blue by BENEfIT, they are all great! And I am so happy they are available in mini size. Next : I want Givenchy!

What a Thursday!

I'm trying to solve a brain teaser given by Johnson.. and it's teasing my brain...

"A very special island is inhabited only by knights and knaves. Knights always tell the truth, and knaves always lie. You meet 6 inhabitants: Zed, Bart, Ted, Sally, Bob and Zoey. Zed tells you,'I and Bob are knights." Bart claims that both Zoey is a knave and Sally is a knight. Ted tells you,'Of Bob and Bart, exactly one is a knight.' Sally says that Zed would tell you that Bob is a knave. Bob says that Zed is a knave. Zoey tells u that sally is a knave and she is a knight."

So who the hell is a knight and a knave??

My whole body is aching badly now, and still gotta work tomorrow. I wonder how am I going to deal with this. Will my body get used to it? Or will my bones crack one dayy?? Hmm :( I guess I am gonna just quit the second job, there is no good for me doing it. In fact, I'm having homework coming up!

Yesterday was a bad bad day, and I got home late night knowing that the next day I will have class at 8 am, I went to bed immediately. Here is the bad bad day:

Woke up at 9:30 a.m. realized that I missed my BSCT audio class for the first time and it's just my first week :( However, I managed to attend my other class and it went well. Went home and wasted some time, took a nap at 3.... MAN it was such a good nap, but too bad, 4 p.m : I gotta go now. Gotta work my ass out for the rest of the day. So at bus stop I was, standing, sleepy and waiting for the bus... all of a sudden, a man appeared in front of me. In two seconds I realized that he is the guy that I always saw on Silver Ave and he is a freakin' lunatic. The first time I saw him, which was long long time ago, we were on the bus and he was staring at me like a freakin' lunatic! (and that is what he is). Well, that can be ignored. The second time, we were in the bus again, standing side by side and holding on the same stick, his hand on top elbow touched my hand. Well it happened all the time when bus is crowded. Then weird things happened. He started to move his hand up and down, rubbing my hand. FREAKIN' SCARY! AGAIN, I met him yesterday when I was waiting for my bus and this time he approached me like a freakin' lunatic! And he talked to me with a freakin lunatic voice,eww! and he was trying to touch my hand. Sleepy me, was speechless for a second. I moved away, told him that I don't know him and he left with a kind of smile that tells you, he will be back! And now I'm scaredddddd!!!! GGRRR!
Enough said of the freakin' lunatic. My bad bad day continued at work and I was working working working... Making 10 glasses of Shang ri las. It was very crowded outside, Nicky and Lucy were so busy that boss started to nag again. "U all are so slow!!" Nicky lost his tempered. Argued. Quit his job. He left. He left just like that, left us busy for the rest of the night. There is a wait in a Thursday evening, OMG.

Tell me how am I supposed to do with that freakin' lunatic? Cause he is freaking me out.
Now Ye Qi and Henry is giving me suggestions like, ask your friend to accompany you? I know :( But I don't really have a friend, I am on my own now. :( How sad.

I am so tired, I can't even continue writing.

It's a zzz Day

Wednesday, it's a long long day. Started 4 a.m. this morning and Okay now is 1:20 a.m. so it's almost 22 hours now. This is what happened:

• woke up a few times last night, but tried to keep sleeping 'til 4 a.m.
• Went online, got ready and went out at 5:20 a.m.
• Nextbus.com says that next bus is available in an hour, Tris panicked!
• Went to bus stop anyway and it was 5:35 a.m. still no sight of bus and it's so dark!
• Walked to BART station at fastest speed and got to work on time.
• Spent two hours at Lunch Box making croissant.
  
• PHIL class at 8. Felt sleepy and greasy, smells like ham, egg and cheese just like the croissants i made!
• Johnson said happiness is a fair amount of clear thinking.
  
• Johnson said not all stress is bad.
• Makes sense and realized that stress is unavoidable, but if we can control it, it's good stress!
  
• 9a.m. video class, still feel greasy and uncomfortable.
• Went to City Cafe with Obet and Candice, disappointed by the choices of food they have. I need some Asian food!! RICE!
• Chicken mushroom empanada was alright, i felt hungry.
• Finally 1 p.m. Still not so into the audio production part.
  
• Mark Altin looks like a great person.
• SFSU told me I can apply now.
• Got home n did laundry and sleeppppp...
• Ahhh what a good napp..
• zzzzz.. sleeping lullaby.
• Woke up at 5:30p.m. SHOCKED! It's time to go to work!!!!
• I thought I could neglected all feelings when Im busy, but it's not so.
• Felt dizzy at work, cold sweat.
• "Boss can i get off early today?" wanted to say so but couldn't.
• DINNER TIMEEE!
• Eating alone, standing : 5 minutes
• Eating alone, sitting : 10mins.
• Eating with a friend, sitting : 15mins.
• I'm going to eat alone and stand next time.
• Got a milk tea.
• Called Joshua.
  
• We talked for 1 and a half hour.
• Bought all the books, heart broken cause money is gone.
• NEWS :Delbert got a girlfriendddddddddddd <3
• 1:26 a.m. need to sleep now.
• End day with B.E.P "i gotta feeling" hopefully it's gonna be a good good night.
  

:) I love morning mist with a little sunshine.

:)

Second day of school and I am tired already. I hope this stress I am experiencing right now is not serious, so here again my day in pit points:

• Slept at 1a.m. woke up at 5a.m. I am such a morning person.
• BCST120 is just as boring as last semester, but this time I can't drop.
• Better classmates tho.
• BCST 115 is so awesome, Dr.Hale looks awesome.
• He went to SIU because it was listed as the Best Party School in PLAYBOY magazine.
• Theresa was so hyper active, that everybody was having a good time.
• Radio show, TV show, sounds FUN!
• "Desperately getting into the dying industry." -McFarland-
• Went to QUICKLY twice today :D
• Met Clara and had a nice talk.
• iim's teeth was so full of "jigong" it was so unbearable distracting.
• Another ill-feelness on him.
• Ishak story was so funny, lied to the administration that he is going to engage this Sep and fake some tears. He got the class and now graduated.
  
• Just submitted application on CSU Mentor, it's a good day!
• Thankful that I'm not working tonight, or I will probably faint.
• This forehead is heating now....
• Still not ready for work at tomorrow's 6 a.m. but I will try and see how it goes.
• First day of work is always, nerve-racking.
• Found out that UT is a Public Ivy, makes me wanna go there.
  
• Cecil Hale intro about himself was interesting, especially the part he met Michael Jackson sleeping on a table when he was 9 years old.
  
• He worked in a radio station, being the only black in the region, KKK burnt the station down.
• This neck is so so tight.
• Everybody is telling me I'm losing weight, everybody is having illusion.
  
• Wanna sleep soon at 9 p.m.
  
• Let's hope it's going to be a GOOD GOOD day!!
• Deborah Goldsmith is the HAND-OUT queen!
  

Love,
Tris

17th August 2009

Again,

• couldn't sleep last night and decided to go campus at 7 a.m.
• Added Johnson's PHIL 40 8a.m. every MWF, I don't know if I can make it to all classes.
• Johnson is not that HOT, but he is a nice guy.
• Lesson no 1. nothing is TRUE or FALSE, it's just a fact which is well supported or not well supported.
• Decided to skip 1 p.m. Altin's class cause I was so freakin sleepy.
  
• Went to Lunch Box to get a cup of hot chocolate and applied for the vacancy.
• Interviewed by a guy named Chris and he is a MALAYSIAN!
• Chris called at 3:30 p.m. and I have a tryout tomorrow at 6!
• Hated my move, cause this job give me no SSN and I have to wake up so early.
• 5:10 p.m. Vinchia told me she is hired too!
• Now, I have a reason to be excited about.
• I sensed an indonesian crowd this morning.
• Saw a lot of familiar faces, but not familiar enough to talk to them.
• Had a really good nap.
• Now ready to go to work.
• Hope to get off work early tonight :D
• Gotta call dad for this news, yay! I finally have a reason to call!

Love,
Tris <3

Days in Points

4 days in a row of work, cracking lips, chipping nails and straining muscles. Fuhh I'm exhausted, but when I look at my other co-worker's schedule, I know I should stop complaining~ Here's my days in pit points:

• Met a new co-worker named Flora, she talks like auntie.
• Eye candy of the night, a cutie in green American Apparel jacket who dined with parents and I wish to see him again.
  
• 4 birthdays on Saturday.
• First, a Spanish group of people with some cute kids and I love to listen to them talking in Spanish, Que pasa?!
• Second, a birthday surprise for a very old lady and she was touched to tears. I will too, when I'm that old and my son and grandchildren LOVE me.
• Third, a bunch of gay (maybe) who were wearing some glowing sticks around their necks and wrist. Obviously someone is having a birthday.
• Last birthday song goes to a group of gentlemen.
  
• I saw at least 4 gay couples.
  
• Sherly put an extra table numbered 88 at the waiting area and surprisingly someone is willing to sit there having dinner with the crowd waiting.
  
• Mitul almost made me late for work, I hated him for 5 minutes.
• My headphone is not working well and I certainly need to update my iPod.
• Saw a bunch of cute kids, as usual.
  
• Slept at 3 woke up at 7am on Friday.
• Slept 12 hours the next day.
  
• Joshua had some emotional breakdown.
  
• Bus in 12 minutes, managed to get a milk tea anyway.
  
• Think Katy Perry is awesome, loves Jordin's new songs.
• At 9:30p.m on Sat, Boss told us 14 people are coming, we almost fainted.
• Think Nicky is amusing, although he is always frowning.
• Very sad cause 2moro she has to work
• Very sad again, cause tomorrow is the first day of Fall semester.
  
• Hope to get the Philosophy class, cause the lecturer is good looking.
• Shopped at Sephora.com for second time this week
• Owe Kai his jacket, cause she failed to go post office this week.
  

So I can't say that my days were pointless, although almost everyday I woke up late and went to work and spent the rest of night in front of my computer. But yea, so many points of it. I "can't" wait for another day.

The Start of Yesterday Once More

Last Night, or just now, was my first of work after 2 months holiday! That makes me feel ALIVEE!! Good thing is I don't feel new to all the work, but well there were times when I just stopped and thinking what to do next. A little lost. But YEA! It's good to be back to work, busy busy busyy~ I've not move this much in a long time, in such a quick pace. I guess I hurt my back the other day when I fell from the tall chair :( Anyway, It's tiring as usual. Tomorrow night gotta work too, aw :( I can't seem to start going back to work out. But it's 4 a.m. now and I am SURE I will not be able to wake up early tomorrow and off to gym. SO yea, maybe Saturday? Sunday? Or maybe I should just wait 'til everything is done. Worries keep coming back to me. See? Whenever I stop worrying, there's gotta be something new for me. So I appreciate SFSU for making such a generous exception, however I am still unable to apply. And yea when I finally contacted the counselor, he/she told me that Radio and Television major is CLOSE for Spring! What? Do you guys hate me? REALLY? So I have no other choice left but to change my major, FOR NOW. Going in SFSU will probably a wrong decision, but what can I do? I'm so outta options. So yea let's keep praying! Prayin' HARD!

I am so tired right now. Went out with Sheila and friends after work until 3 a.m. It was not even fun. I am like a duck in a chicken crowd, Don't know what they are saying. But Hey, making some new friends is always good. I just found out the good dude in the gang is actually working in a restaurant too, and he is planning to become a bus driver!! OMG. I was surprised, I thought he is still a student or y'know.. I am not going to talk about this, 'cause I will sound annoying.

Dim the light.
Switch off the light.
Off to bed now.

Gettin' Back to Work.

Sherly, my lady bossie, called me this morning and asked me if I could work tomorrow.
Of course, the last Saturday I didn't pick up your phone.
The last Sunday I told you I had serious allergic.
I don't have any other excuse for you.
But I don't need one anyway, I can't wait to get back to work.
This is weird, so weird weird weird.
This is probably the first time me being so happy going to work.
I know that by tomorrow night I will start complaining again.
But hey,
it's been two months and I miss making money!
Working in Mandalay is tiring and hard~
No complains darling, should feel blessed that I still have job to do.
Y'know~ bad economy everybody losing their job.
So yea, it's yesterday once more.
Soon schools starts and I won't have this much time anymore.
I mean I had time of whole world right now.
No more!

:)

Freebie Brown

WOAH! It was such a awesome shower, hair mask after shampoooo :)
And the hair mask smells so good, that I can keep on playing with my hair so the scent will spread around my room... I'm in <3 with James Brown.
Well so it was that night, on transit at HK airport, I bought 3 magazines.
2 British magazines and 1 HK.
I noticed that all UK magazines come with freebies,
so I could not control myself but grab a few.
One of them, Marie Claire, comes along with James Brown hair mask.
WOW~ so I used it today and instantly falling in love.
I checked online and find it available to purchase.
Wuhoooo I would like a shampoo for combination hair pleaseee :)

<3

Hey little boy,

You are such a player, and I am like one of your toys. I am like a little toy that you like, you always have me around but you never play with me. You want me around, but you want to play with other toys too. Good thing is, you ditch them, you don't ditch me. I once thought I am special compare to others, but I guess I am just different.

Hey little master, I realized how you have mistreated me but I still keep on playing with you. Sometimes I wonder why, maybe I should just stop talking stop moving, acting like I am running out of battery. I don't hate you, I could not. I don't like you much either. Perhaps that becomes a balance equation that keep us together. Don't treat me too well darling, don't talk to me like the way you talk to your other toys. I might get jealous sometimes, I know I shouldn't. but I did, sometimes, secretly.

zet zet zet.. zzz.

That picture Santi took with Wilber Pan is driving me crazy!
Ohhh Wilber, you were such a crush of mine.
Same crazy thing happened when Daniel Wu came to SF and I didn't know,
Yea Daniel Wu is another big big crush of mine!

OMG,
I guess I don't have such luck for star struck :(

Oh, now I'm currently so in love with Jason Mraz.

am I crazy?

When the Sun Dims the Light

Oh Tris, why do you feel nothing? I walked along Ney St today for the first time in two months, but I was in a rush, I walked so fast I noticed not a thing. I guess that's what happened when time flies, I do not notice all the itsy bitsy.

It was a wonderful Summer back there. I was okay when I left, I tried not to cry although tears are just around the corner of my eyes. I walked away and I didn't turn back and see what's left behind. The sadness, I kept inside.

So hey, I am at San Francisco again. It's silent, it's clear and it's empty. My sadness ran out of myself. This place feels like a stranger. For the past two months, I'm always surrounded by people. Mother and Grandma couldn't stop arguing, it was annoying but now I miss it. Jakarta, probably the noisiest city I've ever been, noises from all sides. All of a sudden, I am here in San Francisco, again. And this place is so full of silence, I felt like to cry. I am so homesick. Less than 24 hour, miss my friends and family again.

Summer's about to end. Going back to the old life, I'm here alone in my room. My boss called me to work like how she used to. But rashes is bothering me, blame it on Singapore Sling, gave me rashes! ggrr.

In a few days, I will start my work, start my study. Life is going to be like how it used to be. All the routines and watching time flies. Hopefully things will go well. I kind of stop worrying now, but I know I shouldn't. Let's get back to work.